It seems absolutely wild to me that we’d ever come into this life and subject ourselves to life on Earth. All of this life stuff is hard to take sometimes. So, what is a soul contract and why do we have to deal with it?
I don’t love using cliched terms like “soul contracts” but I know they’re real. There’s some plan behind all of this. Life isn’t random. I didn’t come here by accident. It was all intended. The pain and trouble I experience on Earth are for a purpose and this story was carefully plotted before I was born.
We come here to experience joy and sadness, pleasure and pain, and we chose it. Swallow that.
None of this is random. There’s a divine purpose in it.
Sometimes the pain or the loneliness gets so hard that although I’m aware of my soul’s plan, I kind of want to get out of it. I question the contract. I wonder why I’m here and why I would ever subject myself to this kind of torture.
Do you feel this, too?
Spiritual Depression Goes Beyond Situational Depression
It’s only when I am already feeling kind of down. I am in a negative mindset at times. And my mind goes in circles thinking about the things happening in my life that make it difficult.
Loss and grief are the hardest. I try not to deny the soul contract or imagine that life is going to be easy. But I just ask why. Why did I agree to this?
It depresses me that life is full of suffering — not just for me, but for others, too. It’s hard to endure. I’m in pain but so is most of the planet. We all agreed to this. How crazy is that?
Being Awakened Isn’t Easy
It depresses me that life is awful sometimes — and that I wanted this. Like, what do I do about it now? I am aware of my situation. I am awakened. But now I have to face the purpose behind my existence here.
I agreed to be here and I shouldn’t break that agreement. I know this. I must have done this for an incredibly good reason. And yet, I kind of hate myself for it.
I must be some kind of masochist to make all of this happen, right?
Embracing the Contract and Being Happy About It
Of course, when my mind goes in the direction of despair, I know that I have to pull myself out of it.
The fact that there’s a reason for everything can either excite or depress you. There are some heartwrenching things in this world that force you to ask how this could be part of anyone’s plan. You may never get a clear answer. The plan isn’t clear to us as humans.
However, there are also some beautiful things in life — moments of bliss and revelations — that make the soul contract a little more clear. We can sometimes feel very aligned with it. Our souls sometimes glow in the light of pure divine love. This is why we’re here.
It’s hard being spiritual. It’s all fun and games until catastrophe hits.
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