Doesn’t it suck when you’re up and then you’re down again? Experiences of joy and sadness come in waves unless we try to do something about our reactions to them. We can find ourselves in a state of depression that’s spiritual in nature – it’s spiritual depression.
I have enough awareness to know that this is all a story — I’m playing a role. I’m following some kind of script.
I also have enough awareness to know that I am a soul incarnated in a human manifestation. I am still working toward bliss and enlightenment to release attachments to all of this physical existence stuff, but you know, my ego is still here. It still allows me to feel the ups and downs.
When I get depressed, it’s like my ego and my spiritual side meld together. I find myself in a sort of limbo between transcendence and the 3D physical world. It can get rough.
A Higher Form of Sadness
I often feel like I am drowning in the circumstances of this existence. When I am depressed, I don’t blame the people around me, I blame the universe and myself. I get angry that I am here. Why did I agree to endure this? What compelled me to come here? Why is the universe against me? Can anything go right for me? Is this all a practical joke?
The part that’s angry and struggling against my circumstances is my ego. The part that understands that this is all part of a great plan is my soul.
I suppose this means I am about halfway to somewhere enlightened since I at least have some self-awareness. However, it almost feels more painful here than it was when I was ignorant and just living in the matrix.
I can see that there’s a great purpose in everything, and yet it is apparent that things have to keep going wrong. Calamities must rain down on my head to force me to wake up further and find a way to survive. I resent it.
I very much resent the situation.
Pain Is Part of the Game
If I became too comfortable and complacent, I wouldn’t grow at all. That’s boring, right? We have to stay in some state of discomfort to keep moving. The roles we’re playing require it.
When we get too focused on our small lives, we feel the pain intensely because we can’t see the big picture. We don’t realize that everything happens for a reason and that circumstances come in waves and seasons. Things will improve and then there’s always a chance they will fade. Everything has an expiration date.
As you transcend this everyday reality and feel connected to the great tapestry of consciousness that we occupy, it’s not like all of your problems go away.
Now, you can see that you’re here for a reason and time isn’t real, therefore we are just having an experience of being located in this one part of space-time. The problems I am facing right now are just one point in a great story. I can see that there is always more to the plot, and I can stay aware of what has happened before in this plot.
But does that make it all better? No. Not really. The pain I endure has merely changed.
The Goal Is to Overcome It by Rising Above It
I can still feel things as they are happening to me without being attached to the outcome. I can still learn lessons without grasping so tightly to what I currently have or wanting what I currently don’t have. But hey, this is a hard thing to do.
Non-attachment is the only answer I know to this problem, and yet it’s not at all easy.
It’s fun when we are attached to the good things in life. It feels good. We get drawn into the plot — caught up in the moment of triumph that life can be smooth, fun, blissful, and easy — all based on what is happening to us instead of what’s happening inside us.
When it goes South, it feels painful again. Why allow yourself to be subject to these ups and downs? Let your happiness and fulfillment come from inside you instead of from what’s happening to you. What is going on “out there” can change in an instant — it appears that you have little control over it. But you’ll find that when you start to work on what’s happening “in here”, the world around you somehow responds.
The universe responds when you work on your inner self. Everything is connected.
Making a choice for your own happiness and peace of mind changes everything. When you transcend and rise above your problems, you feel free. Let go of what’s happening right now and see that you’re part of a plot that is full of ups and downs, and it’s wonderful. If you make good choices for your own inner life, then you’ll be the character in this story who achieves good things — spiritually — and paves the way for others.
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