I woke up from a nap today and landed myself into an existential crisis of sorts. It’s funny how naps are different from night-sleeping. We’re so used to waking up in the morning and forgetting where we’ve just been. But when we nap, it feels different waking up — at least for me. I wake up from naps these days and I’m like, “holy shit, am I back here again?”
My dreams during naps are the most vivid. Always. I hang out with dead loved ones, my spirit guides, I go to Disney World’s Magic Kingdom and ride the rides without waiting in line, and run around with superheroes fighting bad guys. Can you blame me if when I wake up, I’m like “good grief”?
Today I was really hit hard when I woke up. I felt the “other side” so strongly. This isn’t real. This isn’t the most real, I should say. This is an illusion right here. This is a puppet show. The puppeteers are our higher selves who are over there pulling the strings. When we sleep, they get a coffee break.
This is the set of Mister Rogers. We’re surrounded by puppets in our houses and backyards, and they are really convincingly self-aware. They have their own problems and relationships, and they’re trying to draw us into them. But we can put our shoes on and go have a beautiful day in the neighborhood if we want to.
In between episodes, we get to hang out in the green room backstage and have fun. This is the dream world, guys. We have happy hours with our soul friends, we have a grand old time laughing and enjoying each other, and sometimes we even have orgies. I am barely making a metaphor here — it’s true.
So, we all need to take more naps. Why? Because we need a break from puppeteering.
None of This Is Real
Stop and realize that this is all a manifestation that we create in the morning when we wake up. We can’t really get out of it but we can liberate ourselves by not believing in the story anymore. It’s like a TV show that draws you into the plot. But you have the choice to turn off the TV completely.
It’s like the lyrics in Hotel California, “you can check out but you can never leave.”
That’s what I’m doing. Checking out. This isn’t real. I am not playing along anymore. I’m just gonna go along with it and see what happens, and eat a lot of sandwiches because I don’t think they have those on the other side. The break room over there doesn’t have the same snacks.
After the sandwiches, I am gonna take naps. And in between, I’ll just see whatever the universe brings to me.
This Is Playing Out Some Lesson
We don’t realize the truth usually. Just like Mister Rogers, this show we’re on is about lessons. Humanity is watching. The collective consciousness responds. It’s serious, guys. If you wanna teach the kiddies how to share their toys, you’d better demonstrate it well when you’re on the air. We’re all watching.
No betraying others. No betraying yourself.
Even when you realize you’re a puppeteer, you still have moral obligations. You are still here to play a role. You have a job to do.
Let’s Change the Storyline
Maybe you don’t like how the plot is unfolding. Well, goddammit, why don’t we change it up?
Get in the scriptwriters’ office and make your case. Manifest the world you want. Once you rise above the plot you’re in, maybe you can go rewrite it.
Demand changes. Go on strike. Whatever it takes. You don’t have to take this shit anymore.
Maybe if they don’t want to let you have the plot you’re asking for, you can change networks. You could leave Mister Rogers and get on a real Hollywood production worth millions. You deserve it. You can play the part you want. You probably still need to learn some lessons for the audience watching, and have some emotionally wrenching scenes because we still need to experience that part of the plot with you. But you could potentially only allow the irony you’ve approved ahead of time.
Literally None of This is Real. I Already Said That.
Just play your role. Take your coffee breaks at night when you dream. Try to wake up a little more — all the time. Stay connected to your dream life, and be lucid. That’s still you over there, but you aren’t attached to the same stuff. If you can be worried about completely different things in your dreams than you are in daily life, then is any of it important? No.
When I dream, I forget the situations in waking life. I forget whether the person I am talking to is dead or alive, even. I’m learning to lucid dream. Maybe that’ll tie in the two realms a little more. And then maybe I can get answers. I could go in the back office and sort some things out about this waking experience! I’ll talk to the manager.
But I think they can hear us anytime — the managers. The scriptwriters. Sometimes we like to call them “Spirit”. They’re always listening. You can ask them whatever you want. They’re working with us here.
My other advice? Just enjoy the relationships with the other puppets around you, look deeper to see the souls who are making it all possible, and flow with it.
Make friends with your scriptwriters. You might even be one of them without realizing it.
And if all else fails, go back to sleep. It’ll be fine.
